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[00:00.000] 作词 : Jonathon Quiles[00:01.000] 作曲 : Jonathon Quiles[00:13.263]Yeah, feels like I'm losing myself[00:15.116]Feels like I'm losing myself[00:16.344]Why am I dooming myself[00:17.562]The **** did I do to myself[00:18.742]Should've been true to myself[00:20.102]Dumb to think you would've helped[00:21.369]Dumb to think you would've helped[00:22.590]Feels like I'm brewing in Hell[00:23.864]Feels like I'm brewing in Hell[00:25.149]Can't be hard for you to tell, uh[00:26.897]Stuck in a slump and I keep climbing up[00:28.355]I just turned 25 feels like my time is up[00:30.068]Feels like everyone's sus and it's harder to trust[00:31.777]And I can't shake the gut feeling[00:32.808]I'm feeling like there's a knife in my gut[00:33.945]And that's a gut feeling[00:35.071]When you know deep down that the real person you love[00:36.682]Is dooming you that's why I left[00:38.030]No don't get upset when you see me 'cause I didn't wanna give you up[00:39.994]And it's ****ed to think for you I wasn't enough[00:41.465]I just wanted your love but you wanted[00:43.255]There's some nights I wanna go and get hella drunk[00:44.967]So everything I was feeling could turn into numb[00:46.764]Addicted to you, you're my favorite drug[00:48.435]I buy your lies, you're my favorite plug[00:50.500]Sometimes at night I will stare up above[00:52.094]And wish under a star that I wasn't so dumb[00:53.742]Why does it even matter, shit I didn't matter[00:55.429]I built up my hope just for it to get shattered[00:57.118]I'm always alone with the thoughts that I gather[00:58.784]I flip through my thoughts it's a terrible pattern[01:00.294]As if flipping through 'em will lead me to answers[01:02.166]I try to move forward, but keep going backwards[01:03.802]I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter[01:05.422]Where no one knows that I'm a wild disaster, ****[01:07.450]Give my all[01:09.668]Oh, I wanna walk away[01:13.110]I'm living like a ghost[01:16.453]And no one ever knows[01:20.844]See me fall[01:23.325]Oh, I knew that I would break[01:26.765]I'm living like a ghost[01:30.116]But no one ever knows[01:34.170]Always alone I wish someone could see me[01:35.920]I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling[01:37.612]Talking to myself until I'm overthinking[01:39.244]I'm home all alone no one knows that I'm weeping[01:40.969]I swear my whole life is so ****ing deceiving[01:42.623]And I stand for broke with the checks I'm receiving[01:44.429]My money can't buy the family I'm needing[01:45.781]My money can't heal the agony I'm feeling[01:47.795]I need someone to love to me, someone to hug me[01:49.606]Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly[01:51.142]I swear they really think my life is stunning[01:52.547]Bro I come home to absolutely nothing[01:54.439]I'm just a lonely guy loaded with money[01:56.196]Nobody told me my days won't be sunny[01:58.143]I'm bleeding on people who didn't cut me[01:59.623]So when they leave me, they leave 'cause they bloody[02:01.429]I have issues with women, I'm so co-depended[02:02.967]I can't love myself, so I need her to give it[02:04.694]And that's always where my self-worth is depicted[02:06.325]And that's why I date women so narcissistic[02:08.015]My mind is a mess and it's always conflicted[02:09.636]And lately it's been hard to make a decision[02:11.310]And it pains me that I finally admit it[02:12.970]I've been suicidal and trying not to end it, ****[02:14.997]Give my all[02:17.372]Oh, I wanna walk away[02:20.561]I'm living like a ghost[02:24.213]And no one ever knows[02:28.576]See me fall[02:30.898]Oh, I knew that I would break[02:34.284]I'm living like a ghost[02:37.563]But no one ever knows[02:41.775]I'm saddened to think people that think that I'm reaching[02:43.573]And that is the reason I feel what I'm feeling[02:45.217]I may have some fame, but it's pain that I'm reaping[02:46.897]I been praying to God asking Him for a healing[02:48.591]Man, I need my mom, I need my dad[02:50.269]I need the family we never had[02:52.067]Our family's broken, I'm feeling hopeless[02:53.794]Nobody notice I'm in a trance[02:55.408]All I have is my daughter I stare in her eyes[02:56.978]And I break down all I do is provide[02:58.863]How can I give her a family life[03:00.509]When it's just me and her every night, ****[03:03.003]Yo, this shit is too much[03:04.110]I'm single-handedly killing my buzz[03:05.667]I don't make music 'cause I'm in a rut[03:06.832]And all of the stress of it is making me numb[03:08.929]Why do I dream of a Grammy I'm winning[03:10.630]When I don't have a family to celebrate with me[03:12.352]Look there is no bullshit excuse that you could give me[03:13.993]To make me feel like my damn life is worth living[03:15.660]I swear loneliness is a cancer within me[03:17.234]I'm searching for friends 'cause my family's missing[03:18.916]This shit is exhausting, I'm thinking of quitting[03:20.638]And maybe the end for me is a new beginning[03:22.553]Give my all[03:24.861]Oh, I wanna walk away[03:28.273]I'm living like a ghost[03:31.719]And no one ever knows[03:36.193]See me fall[03:38.509]Oh, I knew that I would break[03:41.902]I'm living like a ghost[03:45.209]But no one ever knows
