[00:00.000]I'm afraid of the way that I live my life,[00:05.189]I'm afraid of the way I don't.[00:10.551]I'm afraid of the things that I wanna do, but I won't.[00:21.286]I'm afraid of God,[00:24.121]I'm afraid to believe.[00:26.623]I'm afraid of all the loved ones that I've made leave,[00:32.133]I'm afraid that my dog doesn't love me, anymore.[00:42.427]I'm afraid of social laziness that let Kitty Genovese die, and,[00:53.492]I'm afraid of the mob mentality that makes otherwise normal people go blind.[01:04.143]I'm afraid of the way that the world works, and,[01:09.501]I'm afraid of the words in my notebooks,[01:14.691]I'm afraid that you all know that I am a pervert.[01:24.285]But the big red bird that lives under the city,[01:30.839]Doesn't give a damn about me,[01:34.779]and it dies every night, by burning alive.[01:46.469]I'm afraid of my grandfather's cancer, and,[01:52.173]I'm afraid of my mom's dying arm,[01:57.477]I'm afraid that I've somehow caused my family harm,[02:08.082]I'm afraid that ones I love won't have enough,[02:18.775]I'm afraid that ones I love won't have enough.[02:30.193]It's harder to be yourself, than it is to be anybody else,[02:40.777]I wish I were a little less of a coward.[02:49.287]But the big red bird that lives under the city,[02:55.918]Doesn't give a damn about me, and it dies every night,[03:05.306]So I bought a knife,[03:10.890]I am a knife.