[00:11.91]Honestly I’m exhausted.[00:13.73]Why is my society so toxic.[00:15.78]My sobriety affecting me like I was standing in a mosh pit.[00:19.49]I just think I’m running outta options.[00:21.32]Everyone the opposite.[00:22.81]Hoping they don’t see me as a college kid.[00:25.11]Cuz most of them don’t even know what knowledge is.[00:27.34]I’m ripping up my scholarships.[00:28.59]I just wanna be an artist now.[00:31.04]And I know they’ll prolly hate me, say I’m watered now.[00:33.75]I don’t got any trophies.[00:35.63]I’m stuck on the shelf.[00:37.06]Everyday is my battle.[00:38.34]I’m only fighting myself.[00:39.62]If I was ever deployed.[00:41.06]I think I’d write to myself.[00:42.52]They say they want me to fail.[00:43.88]I’m not receiving no help.[00:45.30]I’m not wanted, haunted by every comment.[00:47.77]I promise I'm being honest.[00:48.92]They just wanting the honor.[00:50.46]I was never the starter.[00:51.91]Breaking through all my armor.[00:53.34]Maybe I’m just a joke.[00:54.63]I Should’ve been working harder.[00:56.17]Tell me okay[00:58.48]It won’t stop the pain[01:01.28]Life continues this way[01:03.91]And I am drowning so[01:07.63]Call me lonely, call me messed up[01:13.13]Im just tired of this world and I’m tired of myself[01:19.97]Right now I don’t know about it.[01:22.02]Tryna think of anyway, that I can go about it.[01:24.95]Lotta thoughts in my mind, now it’s overcrowded.[01:27.49]Take a sec, and a breath to control the balance.[01:30.42]Every minute adding up, on the stopwatch.[01:33.25]Not enough time, feel like everybody bossed up.[01:35.80]I cannot shoot, time is up on the shot clock.[01:38.59]Wishing I could swish, but I’m still getting crossed up.[01:41.61]Say you balling out.[01:43.12]Friendship falling out.[01:44.43]Always in some trouble, no one hear when I’m calling out.[01:47.23]Hoping music gonna change my life.[01:50.48]People leaving me I know that I can make it right.