[00:00.000] 作词 : Michael R. Jackson[00:01.000] 作曲 : Michael R. Jackson[00:07.261]USHER: I am the story's writer[00:10.375]I'm barely scraping by[00:13.757]I wake up every morning[00:17.412]I tell myself to try[00:20.812]I say, "no compromises"[00:24.190]I claim to have a plan[00:27.609]But feel like nothing more than[00:30.865]An angsty, gay, black man[00:34.527]Who looks into the mirror[00:37.928]Despite the grief it brings[00:41.352]Who hears these sloppy S's[00:44.731]Betray him as he sings[00:48.136]Sometimes I feel so ugly[00:51.566]Sometimes I feel so smart[00:54.946]Some people stand together[00:58.369]Meanwhile, I stand apart[01:02.031]Should I give up on hoping[01:05.163]My point of view will shift[01:08.545]And let this agony[01:12.215]Just be my greatest gift?[01:15.621]But if that is the secret[01:19.024]That makes, like, zero sense[01:22.427]I'll never change forever[01:25.832]If I stay on the fence[01:29.226]With doubts I let define me[01:32.618]And lust I can't express[01:36.021]And pain I keep avoiding[01:39.382]And rage that I repress[01:43.038]I should stop overthinking[01:46.408]And do the thing that's tough[01:49.801]Unleash my hungry lion[01:53.236]Cause Lord, he's had enough[01:56.634]Of toxic Tyler Perry[02:00.283]And white, gay, male tyranny[02:03.427]And my secret inner white girl[02:07.059]Though she is dear to me[02:10.479]But would that be sufficient?[02:13.870]Or would that be a sham?[02:17.251]Cause even with those actions[02:20.660]I'm stuck with who I am[02:24.038]Someone whose self-perception[02:27.650]Is based upon a lie[02:30.801]Someone whose only problem[02:34.482]Is with the pronoun "I"[02:37.620]Maybe I don't need changing[02:41.467]Maybe I should regroup[02:44.613]Cause change is just an illusion[02:46.168]THOUGHTS: Just an illusion, just an illusion[02:48.029]USHER: And "I" is just an illusion[02:49.841]THOUGHTS: Just an illusion, just an illusion[02:51.405]USHER: If thoughts are just an illusion[02:52.950]THOUGHTS: Just an illusion, just an illusion[02:58.169]USHER: Then what a strange...[03:00.990]THOUGHTS: Strange[03:03.783]Strange[03:06.380]USHER: Strange loop