Holding on to Smoke - Motionless in White.mp3

[00:00.78]I'm tired of feeling comatose
[00:04.28]I've lost the me that I loved most
[00:07.83]I'm barely holding onto smoke
[00:11.32]I'm barely holding on to smoke!
[00:29.33]I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
[00:32.79]Why do I do this to myself on repeat
[00:36.45]So disconnected from my own reality
[00:40.09]Am I man or machine
[00:41.86]If I give, will you take?
[00:45.28]As I lie for the taste
[00:48.80]I just **** it up
[00:52.15]As you lap it up
[00:56.95](Go!)
[00:58.34]Through flesh and bone
[01:01.91]I walk alone
[01:04.19](Go!)
[01:05.66]If I run will I fade away
[01:07.54]'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind
[01:10.19]In all my pride, all my shame
[01:13.68]I find strength enough to show you
[01:17.28]I may bend but I won't break
[01:20.67]'Cause I define who I
[01:23.21]Define who I become
[01:25.45]I miss the me that I have not met
[01:28.87]Choking in silence on the words left unsaid
[01:32.45]I feel a sickness for a home I've never been
[01:35.89]And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red
[01:39.25]I built a shelter in complacency
[01:42.83]Locked myself in and set fire
[01:44.74]And threw away the key
[01:46.43]Too scared to live but I'm afraid to die
[01:49.69]So am I living or am I just alive?
[01:52.45]In all my pride, all my shame
[01:55.65]I find strength enough to show you
[01:59.24]I may bend but I won't break
[02:02.79]I define who I who I become
[02:06.61]'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
[02:10.48]I've lost the me that I loved most
[02:14.03]I'm barely holding on to smoke
[02:17.45]But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
[02:21.13]Broken! I'm holding on
[02:24.74]Driven! To right the wrong
[02:28.12]Silent! Connected yet I feel so separated
[02:35.19]Fallen! Through flesh and bone
[02:38.68]Frozen! I stand alone
[02:42.18]Deafened! In silence the voice remains
[02:48.34]Behind my eyes, beneath my rage
[02:51.84]I was struggling to get through
[02:55.37]Out of time and out of faith
[02:58.86]I define who I become!
[03:02.11]In all my pride, all my shame
[03:05.93]I find strength enough to show you
[03:09.36]I may bend but I won't break
[03:12.75]'Cause I define who I
[03:15.34]Define who I become
[03:17.22]'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
[03:20.59]I've lost the me that I loved most
[03:23.96]I'm barely holding on to smoke
[03:27.58]But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
[03:31.17]I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb
[03:34.62]I'm waiting for the holy ghost to come
[03:38.09]So save me from the webs that I have spun
[03:41.50]I'm holding on, holding on
[03:45.15]I'm holding on
[03:46.68]Holding on to smoke!