[00:00.0]In my mind[00:02.90]In a future five years from now[00:06.41]I'm one hundred and twenty pounds[00:10.27]And I never get hung over[00:14.57]Because I will be the picture of discipline[00:20.80]Never minding what state I'm in[00:24.42]And I will be someone I admire[00:28.64]And it's funny how I imagined[00:31.39]That I would be that person now[00:35.28]But it does not seem to have happened[00:38.56]Maybe I've just forgotten how to see[00:45.21]That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be[00:55.54]And in my mind[00:58.81]In the faraway here and now[01:02.37]I've become in control somehow[01:06.15]And I never lose my wallet[01:10.1]Because I will be the picture of discipline[01:15.98]Never ******* up anything[01:20.5]And I'll be a good defensive driver[01:24.38]And it's funny how I imagined[01:27.78]That I would be that person now[01:31.21]But it does not seem to have happened[01:34.43]Maybe I've just forgotten how to see[01:41.9]That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be[01:51.67]And in my mind[01:54.68]When I'm old I am beautiful[01:57.73]Planting tulips and vegetables[02:02.81]Which I will mindfully watch over[02:06.82]Not like me now[02:09.53]I'm so busy with everything[02:12.60]That I don't look at anything[02:16.71]But I'm sure I'll look when I am older[02:21.9]And it's funny how I imagined[02:24.24]That I could be that person now[02:27.17]But that's not what I want[02:28.75]If that's what I wanted[02:31.19]Then I'd be giving up somehow[02:34.63]How strange to see[02:38.26]That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be[02:49.63]And in my mind[02:52.81]I imagine so many things[02:56.14]Things that aren't really happening[03:00.29]And when they put me in the ground[03:03.88]I'll start pounding the lid[03:07.18]Saying I haven't finished yet[03:10.82]I still have a tattoo to get[03:13.86]That says I'm living in the moment[03:18.71]And it's funny how I imagined[03:21.46]That I could win this winless fight[03:24.73]But maybe it isn't all that funny[03:28.39]That I've been fighting all my life[03:32.13]But maybe I have to think it's funny[03:35.61]If I wanna live before I die[03:39.41]And maybe it's funniest of all[03:43.24]To think I'll die before I actually see[03:49.46]That I am exactly the person that I want to be[04:01.29]**** yes[04:04.85]I am exactly the person that I want to be