[00:00.342] In my mind[00:02.835] In a future five years from now[00:06.209] I'm one hundred and twenty pounds[00:10.226] And I never get hung over[00:14.445] Because I will be the picture of discipline[00:20.510] Never minding what state I'm in[00:24.350] And I will be someone I admire[00:28.564] And it's funny how I imagined[00:31.630] That I would be that person now[00:35.131] But it does not seem to have happened[00:38.703] Maybe I've just forgotten how to see[00:45.375] That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be[00:55.398] And in my mind[00:58.424] In the faraway here and now[01:01.872] I've become in control somehow[01:05.743] And I never lose my wallet[01:09.899] Because I will be the picture of discipline[01:15.773] Never ****ing up anything[01:19.707] And I'll be a good defensive driver[01:24.188] And it's funny how I imagined[01:27.060] That I would be that person now[01:30.750] But it does not seem to have happened[01:34.231] Maybe I've just forgotten how to see[01:41.023] That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be[01:51.696] And in my mind[01:54.609] When I'm old I am beautiful[01:58.130] Planting tulips and vegetables[02:01.944] Which I will mindfully watch over[02:06.052] Not like me now[02:08.771] I'm so busy with everything[02:12.535] That I don't look at anything[02:16.223] But I'm sure I'll look when I am older[02:20.695] And it's funny how I imagined[02:23.869] That I could be that person now[02:27.264] But that's not what I want[02:28.838] But that's what I wanted[02:30.963] And I'd be giving up somehow[02:34.471] How strange to see[02:37.754] That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be[02:49.004] And in my mind[02:51.998] I imagine so many things[02:55.851] Things that aren't really happening[02:59.553] And when they put me in the ground[03:03.576] I'll start pounding the lid[03:06.339] Saying I haven't finished yet[03:10.368] I still have a tattoo to get[03:14.069] That says I'm living in the moment[03:18.518] And it's funny how I imagined[03:21.618] That I could win this, win this fight[03:25.008] But maybe it isn't all that funny[03:28.368] That I've been fighting all my life[03:32.001] But maybe I have to think it's funny[03:35.531] If I wanna live before I die[03:39.220] And maybe it's funniest of all[03:42.746] To think I'll die before I actually see[03:49.407] That I am exactly the person that I want to be[04:03.686] I am exactly the person that I want to be