[00:02.84]Dear old friend[00:06.92]How has everything been[00:10.94]Do you still have the memories from back then[00:19.10]Or has time took them from your head[00:32.08]Why do people leave[00:33.81]Actually why do i seek relief[00:35.65]In people who only mistreated me[00:37.62]Love the sense of dependence and needing me[00:39.61]I’d give the ones that i love all the blood in my body[00:41.68]But never be seen as enough[00:43.42]I used to kick with my clique never trip[00:45.32]About a ***** shoving smoke in my lungs[00:46.86]Now they just copy me putting out music[00:48.74]Instead of pursuing the **** that they love[00:50.77]They haven't seen all the sleepless nights[00:52.50]I would stay up or the times i would write as i’d cut[00:54.72]I still have notebooks with pages and pages[00:56.89]Of verses soaked all in my blood[00:58.73]Conversations ii had with myself when no one felt like giving a ****[01:01.88]Contemplations i had of just giving everything up[01:04.43]One night i grabbed all my razors[01:06.05]And sat there in silence while holding a gun[01:07.72]Thinking it won’t be so silent when everyone hears what i’ve done[01:10.93]Squeezed the trigger as hard as i could but the bullet was stuck[01:13.89]Etched 20 lines in my skin fell asleep and left life up to luck[01:16.66]I’m not scared of the dark anymore i’m in love with it[01:19.56]Spent so much time in it i became one with it[01:22.12]I don’t ever wanna see the sun again[01:23.64]All i want is to be ****ing dead[01:25.78]Leave me roses and violets inside of my coffin[01:28.43]A knife and an upsidedown cross with[01:30.56]Blood dripping off it[01:31.47]An ounce n some vodka[01:32.68]Make sure theres a moshpit[01:33.85]Make sure my mom is[01:35.25]In the middle getting stomped quick[01:36.43]Forall the times she left me n my brother unconscious[01:38.89]High on drugs coming off it[01:40.14]How has everything been[01:43.35]Do you still have the memories from back then[01:50.72]Or has time took them from your head