[00:00.000] 作曲 : Kevin Atwater[00:17.107]I'm washing my hands, I feel dirty, unkept and unclean[00:24.957]There's fake blood soaked into my jeans and my body[00:29.607]My mom doesn't like it, her boy's being violent[00:34.177]She said[00:34.850]"Why do you have to die in the movies you make with my sons? And why with a gun?"[00:45.059]And I'm stuck at the question[00:47.879]Stuck and my childhood is ending in silence[00:52.609]Ending with my mother crying[00:56.924]A story I've never forgot, her mom, the car, the lot[01:03.794]The church, the shot, my mom, twenty-one[01:08.304]I'll never throw a punch, I'll never touch a gun[01:13.163]Even a fake one[01:15.222][01:16.292]I'm washing my hair, three roommatеs in Washington Heights[01:24.472]They're fast asleep in thе night and it's late[01:28.822]I try not to wake them[01:31.194]A towel in my mouth to help with the pain from my head[01:37.967]A man threw a bottle in front of the huge pentecostal[01:43.737]And called me a word that I used to take straight to my heart[01:49.367]When I tell it now, I skip around and leave out that part[01:56.211]A story I've never forgot, the word, the heights, the cross[02:03.088]The church, the night, my age, twenty-one[02:07.508]I'll never throw a punch, I'll never touch a gun[02:12.308]Even if I could've used one[02:15.427][02:15.547]They put up a painting of my grandmother in a museum[02:23.551]It felt good to see it, we'll cook her recipes this holiday season[02:30.361]I'll think of the man who attacked without reason[02:35.051]No recognition to be seen in his eyes[02:39.437]He's talking to no one and picking a fight with a statue of Christ[02:46.127]I remember that night I wanted to hurt him[02:51.861]But he wouldn't deserve it[02:56.511]He wouldn't deserve it[03:01.023]He wouldn't deserve it