[00:00.005]In my mind, in a future five years from now[00:06.000]I'm a hundred and twenty pounds[00:10.500]And I never get hung over[00:14.355]Because I will be the picture of discipline[00:20.355]Never minding what state I'm in[00:24.555]And I will be someone I admire[00:28.200]And it's funny how I imagined that I would be that person now[00:35.000]But it does not seem to have happened[00:38.755]Maybe I've just forgotten how to see[00:45.100]That I'm not exactly the person that I thought I'd be[00:51.000][00:55.555]And in my mind, in the far away here and now[01:01.899]I've become in control somehow[01:05.855]And I never lose my wallet[01:09.333]Because I will be the picture of discipline[01:15.900]Never ****ing up anything[01:19.333]And I'll be a good defensive driver[01:23.888]And it's funny how I imagined that I would be that person now[01:30.555]But it does not seem to have happened[01:33.955]Maybe I've just forgotten how to see[01:40.900]That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be[01:47.500][01:51.300]And in my mind when I'm old I am beautiful[01:58.500]Planting tulips and vegetables[02:01.800]which I will mindfully watch over[02:05.555]Not like me now[02:09.000]I'm so busy with everything[02:12.555]That I don't look at anything[02:16.300]But I'm sure I'll look when I am older[02:20.800]And it's funny how I imagined that I could be that person now[02:27.000]That that's not what I want but that's what I wanted[02:30.800]That I'd be giving up somehow how strange to see[02:37.555]That I don't want to be the person that I want to be[02:44.000][02:48.555]And in my mind, I imagine so many things[02:55.800]Things that aren't really happening[02:59.800]And when they put me in the ground[03:03.555]I'll start pounding the lid[03:06.555]Saying, "I haven't finished yet"[03:10.555]I still have a tattoo to get[03:13.900]It says, "I'm living in the moment"[03:18.500]And it's funny how I imagined[03:21.400]That I could win this winless fight[03:25.000]Maybe it isn't all that funny[03:28.500]That I've been fighting all my life[03:31.855]But maybe I have to think it's funny[03:35.100]If I want to live before I die[03:39.000]And maybe it's funniest of all[03:42.200]To think I'll die before I actually see[03:49.000]That I am exactly the person that I want to be[03:56.000][04:00.000]**** yes[04:03.855]I am exactly the person that I want to be