[00:00.000] 作词 : 江南第一才女[00:01.000] 作曲 : 江南第一才女[00:02.000] 编曲 : 索兰SORON[00:11.729]混音:糯社KNXER[00:14.795]六点睡 四点起[00:15.730]“rapper”的生物钟[00:16.950]我啥时开始习惯这样日夜颠倒着[00:18.774]打开YouTube 显示账号登录中[00:20.603]愣了一天面对着电脑桌[00:22.165]挑不出的伴奏写不出的歌曲[00:24.413]接近仨月了 我还在搁笔[00:26.141]4AM 还以为我是科比[00:27.877]事实上灵感已丢失的彻底 uh[00:30.167]时间抽回2018年在宿舍用网易云上传了第一首歌[00:33.663]粗糙的混音后期制作 放到现在听来是绝对不够格[00:37.108]但那时候我敢想也敢说[00:39.809]更不在乎歌的反响和传播[00:40.984]我按序点开了从前的烂歌[00:42.856]“She was so spiritual”I wanna find her[00:45.267]慢慢发了更多的唱片[00:46.927]我也追逐着更大的场面[00:48.566]21年八英里 西湖边 back again[00:50.266]I be the first and I got the champion[00:52.616]我感觉我未来已看得见[00:54.481]第一次收获了lotta fans[00:55.981]我以为也能跟他一样[00:57.325]那年的小镇男孩给我颁发的冠军链子[01:00.037]So I got drop out the工作[01:01.838]但也很快受到了重挫[01:03.835]当爱好变成了职业就没有太多机会能给你去容错[01:07.531]我开始do it all for the money[01:09.156]all for the fame and all for 流量[01:11.224]睡不着的每个晚上都在为了惨淡的数据而惆怅[01:14.992]现在rap like考试题[01:16.622]我好像已过了保质期[01:18.774]就在想要放弃的那时候[01:20.355]23年 发了一首《找自己》[01:22.458]我想现在算不算是火了?[01:24.296]是不是终于能找到我了?[01:26.209]但其实总还是差点火候[01:28.104]我到底在哪呢 告诉我lord[01:31.201]where I am x2[01:34.990]到底在哪到底在哪?[01:36.886]where I am x3[01:43.309]到底在哪到底在哪?[01:50.252]where x4[01:52.291]God tell me where I am[01:53.802]where x4[01:55.892]God tell me where I am[01:57.472]where x4[01:59.524]God tell me where I am[02:01.053]where x4[02:03.214]God tell me God tell me[02:04.702]我的家人朋友fans他们都很关心我[02:06.254]会时不时的过来打听我的近况[02:08.222]报了三次新说唱今年终于能够上了结果甚至没过第一轮清唱[02:11.585]如果没进步那就是倒退[02:13.314]这想法禁锢我把我包围[02:15.261]输了我就觉得自己都没搞对[02:16.905]输了我就删了录的每一道轨[02:18.986]当然这只是个小插曲[02:20.670]但和他们不止一点小差距了[02:22.431]每天想的越来越多[02:23.763]可对着伴奏却失去了表达欲[02:26.088]太在乎网上的数据和评论[02:27.825]它们让我停顿[02:29.140]So I 更新 no more[02:30.073]可这实际算逃避的办法[02:31.550]只会让我更加脱离不了贫困[02:33.664]总是想法很多但有各种顾虑做太少[02:35.570]看到每个新人都觉得他们歌太屌[02:37.418]想问我那丢失的自信自洽自尊心[02:40.031]到底在哪呢我在找[02:41.377]听了以前的那些烂歌她在盲目的说着“I can”[02:44.149]But I think she definitely can[02:46.125]God, you have told me where I am.[02:47.809]where I am[02:48.577]where x4[02:50.471]God tell me where I am[02:51.987]where x4[02:54.062]God tell me where I am[02:55.647]where x4[02:57.684]God tell me where I am[02:59.241]where x4[03:01.325]God tell me God tell me