Car Crash - Hotel Books.mp3

[00:01.63]It was problematic at best to perceive existence with a myopic lens I embedded into myself
[00:07.45]My lack of gestures limited the effectiveness of my delivery and all she begged for was deliverance
[00:13.08]Just soft, eloquent passages that provided closure. Not answers, just closure
[00:19.17]And I somehow fashioned together an array of broken glass that looked enough like a vase that it would pass
[00:23.86]And she would find a way to keep her roses watered and alive again, when deep down I was broken
[00:28.80]Prized among the lacklustre thieves immune to pain but pain by immunity
[00:34.16]She beckoned me and she lessened me because no other love would accommodate my blind fold so easily
[00:40.79]And I was afraid of change, but I was afraid of not changing
[00:46.66]I was afraid of change, but I was afraid of not changing
[00:51.74]Then a quick flood of blood infecting my brain, dashboard you, dashboard blank slate
[00:58.91]My narrow lens no longer mattered, no longer weighed in and neither did your fear, or your insecurities, or your smile
[01:06.63]Because in three seconds fate circumvented a concrete divider, followed by seven seconds of nervous prayer, nervous cursing, nervous something
[01:15.64]As poisonous as the snake it came from the oppression presented on my God forsaken lies limited it even more
[01:21.86]Followed by seven seconds of promising myself if I survived I would stop bargaining I would stop pushing off effort in exchange for more time, I would stop neglecting civil spiritual and personal duties or promises, which ever it may be, neither seemed likely at that point
[01:36.35]Followed by two seconds, the longest two seconds I've ever experienced of lying to myself, lying to my God and lying to you
[01:44.31]The words "I love you" seemed so broken and so inaccurate and the words "I promise" seem so trite and so distant.
[01:50.58]But so foolish a passenger caught up in this accident, nothing mattered beyond the fact that I was damaged and I was hurting physically
[01:58.00]Yet somehow I found the strength to thank my God I was a survivor and that's when I heard the fate of the driver
[02:04.86]Three seconds later, closure, not answers. Just closure.
[02:09.19]Lost in the wreckage as a soul ascended, I love you
[02:13.32]Lost in the wreckage as a soul ascended, I love you
[02:16.86]And every day I wish we could trade places; because you were the first person that loved me in any real way, and now I stand six feet above where you lay
[02:31.84]And if I get one thing right in this life I pray that it'll be sharing love with everybody, the same love that you shared with me.
[02:57.32]You call me down here and I hear your voice and the sound of my heart breaking and I pray to god you're still awake
[03:29.74]And I taught myself how to forget that sometimes life will try to convince you there's a such thing as regret
[03:42.71]But I found it to be a lie, the same lie I found when I looked in your eyes after it was said and done
[03:56.09]Scream hallelujah until you come alive, the devil came for our lungs but he left with our love
[04:14.76]Scream hallelujah until you come alive, I inhaled this world for so long that I tore out my lungs