No One Knows - Sik World.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Jonathon Quiles
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Jonathon Quiles
[00:13.263]Yeah, feels like I'm losing myself
[00:15.116]Feels like I'm losing myself
[00:16.344]Why am I dooming myself
[00:17.562]The **** did I do to myself
[00:18.742]Should've been true to myself
[00:20.102]Dumb to think you would've helped
[00:21.369]Dumb to think you would've helped
[00:22.590]Feels like I'm brewing in Hell
[00:23.864]Feels like I'm brewing in Hell
[00:25.149]Can't be hard for you to tell, uh
[00:26.897]Stuck in a slump and I keep climbing up
[00:28.355]I just turned 25 feels like my time is up
[00:30.068]Feels like everyone's sus and it's harder to trust
[00:31.777]And I can't shake the gut feeling
[00:32.808]I'm feeling like there's a knife in my gut
[00:33.945]And that's a gut feeling
[00:35.071]When you know deep down that the real person you love
[00:36.682]Is dooming you that's why I left
[00:38.030]No don't get upset when you see me 'cause I didn't wanna give you up
[00:39.994]And it's ****ed to think for you I wasn't enough
[00:41.465]I just wanted your love but you wanted
[00:43.255]There's some nights I wanna go and get hella drunk
[00:44.967]So everything I was feeling could turn into numb
[00:46.764]Addicted to you, you're my favorite drug
[00:48.435]I buy your lies, you're my favorite plug
[00:50.500]Sometimes at night I will stare up above
[00:52.094]And wish under a star that I wasn't so dumb
[00:53.742]Why does it even matter, shit I didn't matter
[00:55.429]I built up my hope just for it to get shattered
[00:57.118]I'm always alone with the thoughts that I gather
[00:58.784]I flip through my thoughts it's a terrible pattern
[01:00.294]As if flipping through 'em will lead me to answers
[01:02.166]I try to move forward, but keep going backwards
[01:03.802]I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter
[01:05.422]Where no one knows that I'm a wild disaster, ****
[01:07.450]Give my all
[01:09.668]Oh, I wanna walk away
[01:13.110]I'm living like a ghost
[01:16.453]And no one ever knows
[01:20.844]See me fall
[01:23.325]Oh, I knew that I would break
[01:26.765]I'm living like a ghost
[01:30.116]But no one ever knows
[01:34.170]Always alone I wish someone could see me
[01:35.920]I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling
[01:37.612]Talking to myself until I'm overthinking
[01:39.244]I'm home all alone no one knows that I'm weeping
[01:40.969]I swear my whole life is so ****ing deceiving
[01:42.623]And I stand for broke with the checks I'm receiving
[01:44.429]My money can't buy the family I'm needing
[01:45.781]My money can't heal the agony I'm feeling
[01:47.795]I need someone to love to me, someone to hug me
[01:49.606]Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly
[01:51.142]I swear they really think my life is stunning
[01:52.547]Bro I come home to absolutely nothing
[01:54.439]I'm just a lonely guy loaded with money
[01:56.196]Nobody told me my days won't be sunny
[01:58.143]I'm bleeding on people who didn't cut me
[01:59.623]So when they leave me, they leave 'cause they bloody
[02:01.429]I have issues with women, I'm so co-depended
[02:02.967]I can't love myself, so I need her to give it
[02:04.694]And that's always where my self-worth is depicted
[02:06.325]And that's why I date women so narcissistic
[02:08.015]My mind is a mess and it's always conflicted
[02:09.636]And lately it's been hard to make a decision
[02:11.310]And it pains me that I finally admit it
[02:12.970]I've been suicidal and trying not to end it, ****
[02:14.997]Give my all
[02:17.372]Oh, I wanna walk away
[02:20.561]I'm living like a ghost
[02:24.213]And no one ever knows
[02:28.576]See me fall
[02:30.898]Oh, I knew that I would break
[02:34.284]I'm living like a ghost
[02:37.563]But no one ever knows
[02:41.775]I'm saddened to think people that think that I'm reaching
[02:43.573]And that is the reason I feel what I'm feeling
[02:45.217]I may have some fame, but it's pain that I'm reaping
[02:46.897]I been praying to God asking Him for a healing
[02:48.591]Man, I need my mom, I need my dad
[02:50.269]I need the family we never had
[02:52.067]Our family's broken, I'm feeling hopeless
[02:53.794]Nobody notice I'm in a trance
[02:55.408]All I have is my daughter I stare in her eyes
[02:56.978]And I break down all I do is provide
[02:58.863]How can I give her a family life
[03:00.509]When it's just me and her every night, ****
[03:03.003]Yo, this shit is too much
[03:04.110]I'm single-handedly killing my buzz
[03:05.667]I don't make music 'cause I'm in a rut
[03:06.832]And all of the stress of it is making me numb
[03:08.929]Why do I dream of a Grammy I'm winning
[03:10.630]When I don't have a family to celebrate with me
[03:12.352]Look there is no bullshit excuse that you could give me
[03:13.993]To make me feel like my damn life is worth living
[03:15.660]I swear loneliness is a cancer within me
[03:17.234]I'm searching for friends 'cause my family's missing
[03:18.916]This shit is exhausting, I'm thinking of quitting
[03:20.638]And maybe the end for me is a new beginning
[03:22.553]Give my all
[03:24.861]Oh, I wanna walk away
[03:28.273]I'm living like a ghost
[03:31.719]And no one ever knows
[03:36.193]See me fall
[03:38.509]Oh, I knew that I would break
[03:41.902]I'm living like a ghost
[03:45.209]But no one ever knows